can somebody tell me how to stop the time?

For other girls, become a ballerina it's a way to be a beautiful woman. I'm thinking, how if a ballerina have a love? How do they manage their love?
I thought ballerina just dancing away and didn't care about "love".
I want to feel like that.
I don't wanna feel "love" even it's for a moment.

I don't wanna miss him for a while.
I don't wanna think about him for a while.
I don't wanna meet him every day for a while.
I don't wanna worry about him for a while.
I don't wanna feel hurt for a while.
I don't wanna smile but instead I cry. for a while.

And I don't want to love you for a while.

I just want to be like that and I'll be okay.
Even it's only for 1 second or just 1 minutes .

I don't want to really love you.

Because I really love you.
I can't stand without you.

You say that you love me.
But time goes on.
Your words can't promise you for what you are saying.
Your feelings to me after a long time will be decreases.

But I'm not.

Please understand me.
I hope you understand my feeling. Nick.